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ratbones1. New WIP here, brain being consumed, very pleasing given how long it's been since that has happened. It is important for me to just commit to a story concept, any concept, and then get words onto the screen, even if they're all the wrong words. It starts to become a good story and the right words via work, it's not handed down from on high already like that, at least not for me. Anyway - I was for various reasons unable to muster excitement until I'd pushed through that initial effort, but now, now I'm into this fic (and still a little scared about screwing it up but I think I can just let that fear be.)
2. I bought a new laptop! An Asus TUF A17. Fingers crossed that I have chosen well, within the limits of my budget. My current laptop has been used almost every day for 11 years and finally this year started to show real signs of aging, and then went downhill fast. It's gotten bad enough that just flipping through tabs quickly will make things creaky, and I'm not a tab hoarder (although it somehow still loads Warframe and lets me play, if I'm patient with it) and also there are a couple of annoying issues with the screen, so I'm eager to get my hands on something that's not geriatric. I should be receiving it next week.
3. There is no reason why January should be any better than December. New years are obviously arbitrary and January is possibly my least favorite month. So I'm thinking about ways to effortfully make things look brighter for myself. The two items above are a big part of that. Trying to get myself into stretching/yoga; I'm physically active for my job, but frequently a little sore from going between physical exertion and hunched over my desk with no stretching out in between. Trying to meditate more, too, and find where I can fit mindfulness in around writing. They're both really important to me but they are just a little bit in conflict.
4. Not doing a great job of being socially present at the moment, apart from DMs and email (maybe) and my own comment sections, but I'm kind of letting that go by the wayside to ease some pressure till I feel like I'm on less uneven ground, mental health-wise. I'm getting there. Apologies for the general silence.
2. I bought a new laptop! An Asus TUF A17. Fingers crossed that I have chosen well, within the limits of my budget. My current laptop has been used almost every day for 11 years and finally this year started to show real signs of aging, and then went downhill fast. It's gotten bad enough that just flipping through tabs quickly will make things creaky, and I'm not a tab hoarder (although it somehow still loads Warframe and lets me play, if I'm patient with it) and also there are a couple of annoying issues with the screen, so I'm eager to get my hands on something that's not geriatric. I should be receiving it next week.
3. There is no reason why January should be any better than December. New years are obviously arbitrary and January is possibly my least favorite month. So I'm thinking about ways to effortfully make things look brighter for myself. The two items above are a big part of that. Trying to get myself into stretching/yoga; I'm physically active for my job, but frequently a little sore from going between physical exertion and hunched over my desk with no stretching out in between. Trying to meditate more, too, and find where I can fit mindfulness in around writing. They're both really important to me but they are just a little bit in conflict.
4. Not doing a great job of being socially present at the moment, apart from DMs and email (maybe) and my own comment sections, but I'm kind of letting that go by the wayside to ease some pressure till I feel like I'm on less uneven ground, mental health-wise. I'm getting there. Apologies for the general silence.
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Date: 2020-12-10 01:24 am (UTC)It starts to become a good story and the right words via work, it's not handed down from on high already like that
Too true. I wonder if we forget the painful tedious parts every time once a given story is done, and have to keep reminding ourselves that yes, it actually is this hard...
Trying to meditate more, too, and find where I can fit mindfulness in around writing. They're both really important to me but they are just a little bit in conflict.
Interested to hear more about this if you ever feel like talking about it here, as something outside my experience.
Not doing a great job of being socially present at the moment
If there's anything to be said for 2020, it's being entitled to handle things in whatever way works at the moment with no judgment (wow that was incoherent, but you know what I mean). Take good care ♡.
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Date: 2020-12-10 02:16 am (UTC)Aww! <3 They'll be there when you get there.
Oh, yeah, well-put. It seems that I absolutely do forget, if I have a bit of a break. I had myself at the point of wondering if I actually even liked writing. (I do! But there were a couple of days when I didn't.)
I would be happy to talk more about the writing-vs-mindfulness thing at some point! If I manage to find some balance in the next few weeks...or if I struggle and completely fail to...either way, that would give me some fresh experiences for a post, I guess.
I do know what you mean, and thank you for the affirmation of that! <3 It is nice, in a weird way, that everyone is coping with something recently. Feels like perfection is less expected, just in general.