AO3versary!
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ratbonesSeveral things happened a year ago today! I picked a screenname, made my AO3 account, and uploaded my first work. Yes, all in one day. Clicking "post" was one of the most terrifying/exciting things I've done, ever, in my entire life. I'd been reading Guardian fic daily for months at that point, and I'd seen how nice people were in the comments, but it felt like everyone already knew each other, and also I'd also seen how stupefyingly talented everyone was. I was fully prepared to disavow the entire venture, abandon the account, and deny any connection for the rest of my life.
Aaand instead I posted 204k words in my first year on AO3. More than half of those are in a freakin' zombie novel, which. If I had made a list of possible things that I would do last year, I would not have hit upon that. I would have guessed "run for public office" and "develop a cocaine habit" ahead of that. That is still wild to me. Not just All-Consuming, but the whole 204k. Like. Did I do that? Really?
I only kept writing because of feedback. I didn't know if I would be able to write anything that anyone else would enjoy reading; I didn't have any data to suggest that I could. If you've given me some data, thank you. Like, it's not just that people have been nice to me -- people have been amazing to me, I feel super comfortable here, and I've made friends, which is in itself pretty astonishing -- but y'all have indicated to me that the things I've discovered I like making are also things that other actual humans want. What a happy coincidence! Also, kind of the meaning of life, I think?
Okay, I love everyone here, I love this fandom, etc., enough of that. News I haven't posted, because I'm real bad at social media-ing:
-I finished The Untamed...um, two months ago or something. I enjoyed it, but I didn't connect all that strongly to the cast of characters as a group, and I don't ship anything enough to be motivated to write fic or even really read it. I've read a little femslash, but. Turns out Guardian owns my soul, which is kind of relief, tbh.
-Relatedly, I've never mentioned I watched HIStory3: Trapped way back when it aired. It feels weird saying it was too tropey for me when, dude, Guardian, but I think it was because the setting wasn't SF/F? I dunno. I adore Meng Shaofei, though.
-There are Russian translations of Flesh from Bone, Soul from Flesh and its cracky coda. The same translator is posting All-Consuming as a WIP right now. I can't read a word of Russian, but I am astounded at the amount of time they have put, and are putting, into my work. ❤
-I feel like I'm seeing a bunch of bingereaders come through in my kudos emails. New Guardian fans? Lockdown readers? Or maybe it's just me. Regardless, I love seeing people devour what I've written. I'm curious if anyone else has noticed the same thing, though.
-For all kinds of reasons, my writing pace approached zero for a couple of months earlier this year. I clawed my way back to the kind of pace I need to keep my head in a WIP, but it was still harder than it had been in 2019, and I have reason to think that it's going to get harder yet in a couple of weeks. That was kind of sitting at the back of my head, stressing me out, so about a week ago I decided: new rule. 100 words per day, every single day. This turned out to be exactly what I needed. I've written more than 100 words every day so far, but the point is that the bar is so low that I can reach it really quickly, so "I don't have time to write today, it'll be better tomorrow" is not an excuse that is happening anymore. And it's enough to keep my mind processing questions and problems, so I don't have that inertia of not having written in three days and not remembering what I was doing or what I needed to do next. Plus, I just feel better. So. It's what I need to be doing now, and when it's no longer what I need, I will stop. But sylleblahsome has joined me for the moment, and we're both feeling pretty upbeat about making steady progress.
EDIT: Free space to gripe about Trapped and/or The Untamed below! If you want to complain, or share what you did and didn't like, please have at. If negativity will bum you out, please don't scroll. <3
Aaand instead I posted 204k words in my first year on AO3. More than half of those are in a freakin' zombie novel, which. If I had made a list of possible things that I would do last year, I would not have hit upon that. I would have guessed "run for public office" and "develop a cocaine habit" ahead of that. That is still wild to me. Not just All-Consuming, but the whole 204k. Like. Did I do that? Really?
I only kept writing because of feedback. I didn't know if I would be able to write anything that anyone else would enjoy reading; I didn't have any data to suggest that I could. If you've given me some data, thank you. Like, it's not just that people have been nice to me -- people have been amazing to me, I feel super comfortable here, and I've made friends, which is in itself pretty astonishing -- but y'all have indicated to me that the things I've discovered I like making are also things that other actual humans want. What a happy coincidence! Also, kind of the meaning of life, I think?
Okay, I love everyone here, I love this fandom, etc., enough of that. News I haven't posted, because I'm real bad at social media-ing:
-I finished The Untamed...um, two months ago or something. I enjoyed it, but I didn't connect all that strongly to the cast of characters as a group, and I don't ship anything enough to be motivated to write fic or even really read it. I've read a little femslash, but. Turns out Guardian owns my soul, which is kind of relief, tbh.
-Relatedly, I've never mentioned I watched HIStory3: Trapped way back when it aired. It feels weird saying it was too tropey for me when, dude, Guardian, but I think it was because the setting wasn't SF/F? I dunno. I adore Meng Shaofei, though.
-There are Russian translations of Flesh from Bone, Soul from Flesh and its cracky coda. The same translator is posting All-Consuming as a WIP right now. I can't read a word of Russian, but I am astounded at the amount of time they have put, and are putting, into my work. ❤
-I feel like I'm seeing a bunch of bingereaders come through in my kudos emails. New Guardian fans? Lockdown readers? Or maybe it's just me. Regardless, I love seeing people devour what I've written. I'm curious if anyone else has noticed the same thing, though.
-For all kinds of reasons, my writing pace approached zero for a couple of months earlier this year. I clawed my way back to the kind of pace I need to keep my head in a WIP, but it was still harder than it had been in 2019, and I have reason to think that it's going to get harder yet in a couple of weeks. That was kind of sitting at the back of my head, stressing me out, so about a week ago I decided: new rule. 100 words per day, every single day. This turned out to be exactly what I needed. I've written more than 100 words every day so far, but the point is that the bar is so low that I can reach it really quickly, so "I don't have time to write today, it'll be better tomorrow" is not an excuse that is happening anymore. And it's enough to keep my mind processing questions and problems, so I don't have that inertia of not having written in three days and not remembering what I was doing or what I needed to do next. Plus, I just feel better. So. It's what I need to be doing now, and when it's no longer what I need, I will stop. But sylleblahsome has joined me for the moment, and we're both feeling pretty upbeat about making steady progress.
EDIT: Free space to gripe about Trapped and/or The Untamed below! If you want to complain, or share what you did and didn't like, please have at. If negativity will bum you out, please don't scroll. <3
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Date: 2020-05-15 08:37 am (UTC)Turns out Guardian owns my soul, which is kind of relief, tbh.
Ngl, I also breathed a huge sigh of relief when I read this bit. So many of my fav Guardian authors have long since being lost to The Untamed, and of course I accept that, but it's always nice to know someone else is willing to stay in this tiny sailboat with me instead of hopping on the luxury cruise ship, haha.
I never even started Trapped because neither of the main characters looked even remotely attractive to me, and I... Can't really watch BL if they're not at least a bit cute/pretty/handsome? Especially not live action. If it'd had a good plot I wouldn't have considered that for even a moment, of course, but it didn't sound like it did (does it?) so, yeah. (Okay, I just now admitted to being a lot shallower than I appear, didn't I? Yikes.)
Best of luck with your writing!
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Date: 2020-05-15 07:25 pm (UTC)Aww that's so kind! I'm definitely still learning to plot, but, well, if I thought I already knew everything about it, there would be no point in continuing to try, I guess.
Cruise liners are a hotbed for coronavirus, dontchaknow. :P The size of the CQL/MDZS fandom isn't exactly a point in its favor for me. (It also makes me selfishly sad that people have left Guardian fandom for The Untamed, though.)
Listen, man, my first reaction to Shen Wei and Zhao Yunlan, paraphrased from my July 2018 notes, was "praise the heavens and sing hallelujah, they're BEAUTIFUL." Less straightforwardly gorgeous faces will grow on me if I love the characters, but I hear what you're saying. YMMV on the plot of Trapped; I wasn't that into it, but I do think my genre preferences weighed heavily into that. But it is not a plot-driven show. It is a fluffy, tropey romance with a plot. So if the romance doesn't interest you, for any reason, then you're fully justified in giving it a pass, I think.
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Date: 2020-05-16 12:29 pm (UTC)Oh, I hear ya on that! I was a bit sceptical going in because I hadn't heard many good things about the notorious "BL-to-bromance" c-dramas in general and Guardian in particular, but then I took one look at this series image and told my sister, "Forget the naysayers, we're watching it!" :D
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Date: 2020-05-16 07:48 pm (UTC)