Arboreal woes + writing

[ratbones]

I woke up very early this morning, on my day off, to the sound of a chainsaw running right outside my bedroom, where the tree service was taking down my beloved 60-ft-tall pine. The tree dominated the property and absolutely dwarfed my little house. I've been arguing for months that it didn't need to come down, and I knew I hadn't gotten anywhere but I didn't know it was happening today. Now my yard is wrong, my house is wrong, the lighting is wrong everywhere, I'm absolutely livid about the tree and also about nobody listening to me about the tree, and I'm exhausted, both from being woken up three hours before I intended to wake up and from crying buckets. I recognize that I probably look a little crazy for being so attached to a tree, but that just makes me feel worse. :(

At a certain point, I decided that I needed to feed my brain something enjoyable and also completely absorbing if I wanted to stop bursting into tears at the sight of uninterrupted sunlight coming through the window, so I hoisted myself over into words mode. I think I had hit a bit of a procrastination bump on my zombie AU because my outline was outdated and I knew I had to move some things around to fix the pacing for the next couple chapters (aaargh), so I did some aggressive scribbling of plot notes on several sheets of legal pad spread out over my desk, which was a weird turn because I never write anything by hand, but it seemed to be enough of a disruption to get me out of the rut. Chapter 5 just went up, and I have a big chunk of chapter 6 written, along with a pretty precise road map for where I'm going next. Patting myself on the back here for putting a crappy day to good use and doing something that made me feel a bit better. I could've just moped all day. Old Me would have.

By the way, I don't update on weekends because I work weekends. And a few other days per week, but those are more flexible, while the weekend is not. This is part of why I haven't hopped on the Sunday Six bandwagon. The other part is that the idea of picking out a snippet makes me nervous.

I still don't know exactly what I'm doing on Dreamwidth, obviously, but hey an attempt at a post was made that's good right

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[jo_lasalle]

Sudden tree death, with a tree that's been there forever and is really part of the whole place, would make me pretty bummed too. >.<

This is part of why I haven't hopped on the Sunday Six bandwagon. The other part is that the idea of picking out a snippet makes me nervous.

I feel very similar about the snippet thing. I never have anything I feel comfortable putting up for Sunday Six, which is a bit sad because I'd quite like to play, but the idea of pulling snippets out of my longer work is... eeeks! (The one week where I had something I'd have been comfortable teasing with, I forgot. ^^)

[ratbones]

I don't know how old the tree was (guess I could find out now, because there's a giant exposed stump in my yard) but I'm guessing at least three times my age? Which isn't even old, for its species. Feels real bad to see it destroyed so very quickly.

Yes, the snippet thing, aaaah! I wanna participate, and I could always (try to remember to) post on Saturday night, at which point it's Sunday morning for a lot of people here, but wouldn't it either be boring out of context or give too much away I don't KNOW. Plus, I might edit it in between posting the snippet and posting the whole chapter/fic, which is probably completely fine but feels weird.