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AO3versary!
May. 14th, 2020 04:57 pmSeveral things happened a year ago today! I picked a screenname, made my AO3 account, and uploaded my first work. Yes, all in one day. Clicking "post" was one of the most terrifying/exciting things I've done, ever, in my entire life. I'd been reading Guardian fic daily for months at that point, and I'd seen how nice people were in the comments, but it felt like everyone already knew each other, and also I'd also seen how stupefyingly talented everyone was. I was fully prepared to disavow the entire venture, abandon the account, and deny any connection for the rest of my life.
Aaand instead I posted 204k words in my first year on AO3. More than half of those are in a freakin' zombie novel, which. If I had made a list of possible things that I would do last year, I would not have hit upon that. I would have guessed "run for public office" and "develop a cocaine habit" ahead of that. That is still wild to me. Not just All-Consuming, but the whole 204k. Like. Did I do that? Really?
I only kept writing because of feedback. I didn't know if I would be able to write anything that anyone else would enjoy reading; I didn't have any data to suggest that I could. If you've given me some data, thank you. Like, it's not just that people have been nice to me -- people have been amazing to me, I feel super comfortable here, and I've made friends, which is in itself pretty astonishing -- but y'all have indicated to me that the things I've discovered I like making are also things that other actual humans want. What a happy coincidence! Also, kind of the meaning of life, I think?
Okay, I love everyone here, I love this fandom, etc., enough of that. News I haven't posted, because I'm real bad at social media-ing:
( Ambivalence about a couple of fandoms with a lot of Guardian overlap. Also, fic things. )
Aaand instead I posted 204k words in my first year on AO3. More than half of those are in a freakin' zombie novel, which. If I had made a list of possible things that I would do last year, I would not have hit upon that. I would have guessed "run for public office" and "develop a cocaine habit" ahead of that. That is still wild to me. Not just All-Consuming, but the whole 204k. Like. Did I do that? Really?
I only kept writing because of feedback. I didn't know if I would be able to write anything that anyone else would enjoy reading; I didn't have any data to suggest that I could. If you've given me some data, thank you. Like, it's not just that people have been nice to me -- people have been amazing to me, I feel super comfortable here, and I've made friends, which is in itself pretty astonishing -- but y'all have indicated to me that the things I've discovered I like making are also things that other actual humans want. What a happy coincidence! Also, kind of the meaning of life, I think?
Okay, I love everyone here, I love this fandom, etc., enough of that. News I haven't posted, because I'm real bad at social media-ing:
( Ambivalence about a couple of fandoms with a lot of Guardian overlap. Also, fic things. )
